Random Thoughts of a Girl in Nairobi

That falling in love feeling  The one that excites you and terrifies you at the same time  But you welcome both the excitement and terror because they’re thrilling and make you feel alive. The one that makes your heart go badadum-dum-dum  Is that even an actual rhythm?  Maybe you should see a doctor. The one that makes your mouth dry and your skin sweaty and drives your brain into over-drive  The one that makes you forget your own name. The one that keeps you up at night That drives you crazy  And you deny its existence for as long as humanly possible until the truth is too maddening to ignore. The one that makes you daring and adventurous  Helps you step out of your comfort zone  Leads you to do crazy things. The one that haunts you even after they’re gone  The one you have to let go of  The one that you miss. Yes, that’s the one I’m talking about.

I've decided to come out of the closet. And it's funny because I watched a video last year that had the same title but the message didn't really strike me until recently...when I was making a very small decision in my life. Now...hold on before your imagination runs wild. I'm talking about the closet that you might be automatically thinking about. I'm talking about Closet-Christians...get it? no? let me explain. I'm talking about the people who walk around terrified that their not-necessarily-born-again friends and colleagues would judge them if they found out that they were saved. I'm talking about the people who euphemise going to church on Sunday as 'being busy during the weekend'. I'm talking about the people who skip praying before lunch at school to avoid potentially awkward questions and possibly stares. And I promise I'm not judging you because I know what it feels like to be in your shoes...sometimes I still walk in them. It...