My own worst enemy.....

   I am officially my own worst enemy. You live a life where you achieve so many amazing things; but the moment that you make a tiny little mistake or fail in some way, there’s this tiny little voice inside (Ok, not so little. It’s usually pretty darn loud!!) bringing up all your inadequacies and telling you how you’re such a failure.

   Maybe it’s our own weak human condition that makes it easier to believe that we can be failures more than we can be successful. Or maybe it’s the devil trying to bring us down. It’s the same thing when we’re so afraid of taking chances in life like moving to a new city or falling in love. And the worst thing is that we believe it so so easily. It’s something that we readily accept.

   And here’s the funny part: We let it! We indulge in these thoughts and let them take root. We lie to ourselves and so eagerly believe in the lie that we later accept it as truth. And I think that’s the worst kind of lie; the one you tell yourself. Ever noticed how when something amazing happens in your life, you’re happy for like a minute. Then you spend the next couple of hours paranoidly waiting for something bad to happen. But when something bad happens you think ‘Oh, I saw this one coming...’

   But here’s the truth: You can’t live life like that. Looking over your shoulder, afraid to take the next step. In other words; walking on egg-shells. As though you’re an escaped convict. It would be so unbelievably boring, and agonizing!! So sure, you might fall flat on your face a couple of times (In-fact, I guarantee that you will) but it’s not the end of the world!! It may be hard but you don’t have to do it alone. That’s why I’m so immensely grateful for having God in my life. Because I wouldn’t be able to get through half of the things I do without Him.

   Now this is an irrevocable fact: Regardless of how much help you have there’s one thing that only you can do; and that’s believing in yourself. Scientists believed that if you could generate enough force you could overcome the earth’s gravitational pull and send a rocket into space. Same thing applies in everyday life. Before you take any action you have to have even a flicker of belief in your capability to carry out the said action. Belief comes before action! It’s as simple as that. Then after that you can get support from others if you need it.

   I’m not saying that life is perfect, but it’s not a minefield either. We just have a tendency of looking for disaster around every corner!!!